12 Jul 2007
It was midnight. She went around the house checking and rechecking every window and door, making sure that they were all bolted down. She switched the security system on and turned off all the lights. She put her cell phone and her hand set under the pillow(in case she needs to call 911 in the middle of the night) on her husband’s side of the bed, the one that will not be used for a week to come. She sat on her bed seriously considering if she must put the big kitchen knife also under the pillow – just incase some intruder entered the house. She seriously questioned herself if she was the stabbing type. She equated the two innocent children, sleeping peacefully in their cribs, in to the scenario and reconsidered the knife. She shook her head and forced herself to think about something else.
Why did her husband have to go away? She had known about this trip for three months now, but still the minor details scared her. How on earth can she get up in the morning, make breakfast, make the baby’s daal rice for lunch, wake up the kids, feed them, wash them, drop them at day care and make the 8.00AM class? She was used to doing as much as she could and dumping the rest on the husband and runnig out of the house at 7.45AM. It was not just the work. She just felt kind of insecure without her husband, especially in the night when the thoughts of all the psychos she had read about clouded her mind from thinking straight.
She had always been like this. Even when she was young, she felt antsy when her father went off on one of his very are work related trips. She truly believed that these two important men in her life could protect her and her precious children from harm. Its funny because both her father and her husband are small built – they were hardly 5 feet 6 inches tall, not even 130 pounds and didn’t know any kind of defense arts what so ever! Yet, the thought that there was some one to fall back gave her the security.
She never told her husband about the insecure feeling. She was too proud to admit to that kind of thing. She was not the type. Every day of the eight days was a mad rush. The days were long and the nights were longer. To make it worse the toddler fell sick. The child was running 105, throwing up, shivering and shaking – all this at 1.00AM. She had managed by calling her dear friends for help.
Finally eight days passed, her husband arrived. She went and picked him up from the airport. There was a bear hug, no I love you-s or I missed you-s. Her husband is not good at expressing how he feels and she had a big fat ego. They started talking, one thing lead to another and they had a fight over nothing. That’s just how they are – two quirky peas in a pod!
12 Responses for "Home Alone"
Felt like my story(The being alone part and thinking that the puny husband/dad can protect somehow). And I am known to keep a knife under the pillow when home alone 🙂
Lovely story…and the end is so damn true. The max hubby can come to say I missed you is a pat on the butt. Such a demonstrative and affectionate man…
I never had a problem living alone – I rather enjoyed it in fact. But after I got married, I just hate it when he has to travel. It’s weird. Of course, I don’t tell him that either, and I can’t remember the last time he said ‘I miss you’ – but I know he does 🙂
Lovely post. Hope Toddler is feeling better?
i lived alone for 7 years in Delhi.. and now that I am married I get really upset when the OA travels. I think i need a tight slap!
I have never experiences this till date and already know that I won’t like it one bit. I’m glad he’s back home and you can rest your fears a little. 🙂
Yadada, I had been meaning to say welcome to my blog for quite sometime now!
Kiran, even when I tell hubby this is what I expect from him, he thinks I must be joking and laughs it away! After 9 years of drama he is now in a stage where he picks the right cards with the right wordings…aka…he speaks through Hallmark, never through his own lips!
Moppet’s mom, toddler is back to nroma. Thanks.
MM, does OA travel frequently? Mine goes away rarely and I create such a drama for once in a while thingy.
Tharini good for you that you didn’t have to be home alone!
Mine hasnt travelled in the last 6 months. and when he does, i put him through the inconvenience of an early morning flight and a same day late night return so that he doesnt leave me alone for more than 20 hours. i must have separation anxiety!
Hd does nt travel much so I have hardly stayed alone. But was pretty ok with it to be home alone. But scary stories from so many of my friends, including you, about the child getting sick in the middle of the night is kind of getting to me now. Fingers crossed!
BTW, dump the ego and give the man a hug! 🙂
MM way to go.
Boo, I have set a test for hubby. He has to find what I think in my mind is a perfect gift and get that for me, may be then I will admit that I missed him. The person who is going to fail miserably in this test is ME! I knwo this fully well, but I never learn don’t I?
Hey, why do you want a mind reader for a hubby? Think of how awful it would be if he could read all your thoughts:) Be nice to yourself and to him and tell him what gift you want, and that you missed him……
We all have our share of rational and irrational fears, but the one thing we have both learned in our twenty-eight plus years of marriage is to show each other that we care…….
And sit on the fears…squash ’em! (After taking all sensible precautions, of course). Glad to know the little one is better now….
First time I’m commenting here- have lurked here occasionally- also did a CD major in the seventies, so remember old friends like Piaget and Bronfenbrenner
Dipali, welcome. What are we without our imprefections and unrealistic expectations? We too will gradually learn how to work around minor issues. What do you do now Dipali(I mean after majoring in CD)?
Had taught CD and Psychology in a college for a year, then worked in a wonderful organisation called Mobile Creches for another year, on a research project. After getting married in 1979 we were in Thailand where my first child was born. Returned to India in ’84, brought up kids, did random teaching/writing/editing jobs, but have had family priorities keeping me at home most of the time- my aging MIL till she passed away, now my parents….
I do think the perspectives I’d gained were never lost, despite not being gainfully employed……
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